March started off beautifully; with an art walk at the Essex Studio’s. I have a better location than I did in December and therefore a lot more people came to see my work. I’m so grateful to have met so many wonderful people, and so thankful for those that are supporting my creative work.
I am still feeling relatively new in town, although I have lived here in Cincinnati for almost 2 years now, I had trouble at first finding friends and only since the end of last year have I started to really feel welcomed and “at home.” I am so grateful for the creative community here in Cincy, and all the support I have received as I strive to Put Myself Out There (My theme for 2013). It’s not been an easy road to get where I am now, I’ve dealt with many physical and mental health issues that put up road blocks to my dreams of selling my art, some of which I am still working to overcome – one day at a time. But I finally feel like my bloom is opening, and it feels really good to know that I am so welcomed into the creative community here, and that I am making new friends all the time now, and I have never felt so supported by so many people, most of whom are still relative strangers to me, and I just want to thank you all for welcoming me with open arms.
I’m also still very new to the process of meeting strangers, selling my work, and talking about myself and my work. I have been learning a lot about myself the last few months, and it’s been a very eye opening experience. A very good experience too. Self-doubt has been plaguing me for years, it’s one of those parasitic thoughts that feeds off our own fears and other peoples negativity towards our intended dreams and goals. For years I was married to someone who didn’t support my dreams and goals, and 5 years ago that relationship ended, and since then I have been pushing myself to follow my dreams of selling my art. My ex fed my self-doubt, I didn’t believe for a very long time that anyone would even like my work, I had social anxiety, and would panic when talking to strangers. But all that has changed now; I am able to handle social situations so much better, and meeting strangers is easier, I have been able to talk and share the stories behind my work, and my own story, and this whole process has opened my eyes to a new world.
Since December, I’ve sold more then I ever have. I’ve been in 4 group art shows (walk/fair), and this last art walk I sold photography prints, note cards, and more; and it really sunk in that there are people who love what I am so passionate about. This excites me to my very core, and I can’t wait til the next time I get to display my art. In fact, I have the Spring Show at the Essex Studio’s to look forward to, and a new opportunity has revealed it self to me yesterday while at a Creative Society Meeting; to have my very own individual show at the end of April. I’ve never produced my own individual show, and this one will be close to Downtown, in a residential property that is being donated for this occasion by a new friend.
I’m very nervous, and very excited about this new opportunity. I have no idea how things will turn out, if anyone will even show up, or how many things I could possibly forget when putting on this show – but none of that really matters, because I know the opportunity is there, and I am going to take it and run with it. With my theme of Putting Myself Out There, I need to push myself when I have those opportunities presented to me, and keep walking through the fear, keep going past the self-doubt, and even if no one shows up, if nothing sells, the point is that I pushed myself down a new path, I cut away the fear and did what I never thought I could do. I put myself out there into the unknown, with bated breath, and I will succeed in that goal (if nothing else).
Pics from the March Art Walk: